Showing posts with label joy. Show all posts
Showing posts with label joy. Show all posts

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

The sparrow that chirps outside my window



Tiny little body, small beady eyes, and two tiny beaks that open and go tweet, tweet, tweeeeeet .... If my mind has been wandering, or worried or busy, this innocent little ditty from my feathered friend brings me instantly back to the present, fills the air with sweetness and my heart with gratitude.

Grateful indeed!

Friday, April 22, 2011

Boat rides amongst backwaters

This is entirely a nostalgia trip, perhaps owing to the fact that I am now in Kerala, surrounded by swaying coconuts palms and the smells of coconut oil cooking. It has taken me back to the days, when as kids, on our annual vacation spent in Kerala, we used to spend time at our maternal grandparents house, which curiously enough faced the river, and not the road. My father explained to us that this was due to the fact that there used to be times when Kerala had more waterways than roadways and travel up and down these serpentine twists and bends was prevalent. Most well-to-do families owned boats and employed oarsmen and the number of boats owned by a family was considered a status symbol.

So, my grandmother’s paternal home being better connected to ours (in those days) by river rather than by road, when the time came for us to visit, my grandfather brought his now-seldom-used boat out from its resting place amidst the river algae and bulrushes, attached a palm-leaf matted roof, summoned the oarsmen and off we went, on, what was to us city-bred kids, an exotic adventure.

It is said, that, to experience a place fully one must travel on foot, your whole being immersed in the place, travelling at a pace that is comfortable to you, savouring each experience in its fullness. Travelling in a car or bus boxes you in and offers only a rectangular view of the outside world somewhat like a TV screen, and it is a bother to stop and stare every time something demands your extra attention. Boat travel is a happy and fascinating middle path. Travelling at a pace that is at best languid, on a road that moves and flows constantly, browned by the sun, cooled by the breeze, catching glimpses of life being lived out along the riverside, and all your experiences tinged with that sharp, unique scent that the river exudes. As if, not content to just flow, it has to make deep inroads into memory and flow into them, so that whenever I open the pages of these memories, the scent of the river always wafts out, tantalising and captivating.

For us kids who didn’t know swimming, the dark blue-green depths of the water itself was a great source of fascination and my heart always started to pump the minute I stepped on to the boat. From then on, my mind worked as a camera, taking shots with every glance. The river that looked so placid from the bank, suddenly took on a frightening immensity, its waves conspiratorially lapping against the boat as if telling tales of things that happened under the placidly flowing surface, secrets it wants to share if only I could understand its language. The prow cutting effortlessly through the water, leaving behind a small wake that closes quickly and smoothly, showing us, if we would bother to look, the way to live.



Hands trailing the water savouring its molten, magical feel, keeping a lookout for water snakes of which I was terrified (until I found out only later that they were equally scared of humans and were totally without poison), I drank in the sights - kids gambolling, women washing, tradesmen plying - fish, vegetables, household items. Other travel parties passing us by, racing us till the next bend. And the ever-present benignancy of the coconut palms, lining the banks, blotting out the horizons, swaying delicately, sometimes leaning to touch the water, like green, tall, elegant guardian angels, showering us with blessings of safe journeying.

The things that floated by the boat were varied, but all had one thing in common - they had come to their watery grave, a grave that does not encompass, but is never ending and flowing and playfully carrying them around until their bodies melt and dissolve into its fluid body. Such an eco-friendly waste disposal system.

Looking back, it is fascinating to recall how much of a woman’s life was spent on the banks of rivers - washing clothes, utensils, kids, themselves, buying and selling, discarding waste, travelling - the river flowed through her life, an indispensable lifeline. No wonder whole civilisations flourished on the banks of rivers, unlike now, where the flow of money in banks determines flourishing.

Boat rides amongst the backwaters were once a way of life, now they are an exotic tourist attraction. Back then, the river was a member of the family, placid, playful, unpredictable, furious, cranky and yet loved, respected and indispensable. My heart bows with gratitude that at a time when the pace of life was much slower and my heart was innocent and open, I was able to ride upon its molten, shimmering body and partake in slivers of life along its green and verdant banks.


Friday, March 11, 2011

Coiled cornucopia

I pick the sticky, sweet-smelling spiral with my fingers and admire its shape, slender coils spiralling inwards and meeting up in the centre in a thick irregular mass, the coils translucent and shiny with promise. I place it between my teeth and try to bite, but I'm met with resistance, as if the coils do not want to give away their bounty. So I bite harder, persistent in my desire. This time the thin, fragile walls collapse and the ambriosa comes flowing out and coating my tongue with such honeyed sweetness that my eyes close by themselves in delirious pleasure. The next time I bring my teeth together the walls break down even further with a soft crunch as more liquid escapes the fragile walls. Moving, mingling, merging, into a melting mass of molten magic. As taste-buds fire in 1000W intensity, sending lightning flashes of epicurean joy to the brain which in turn orders my heart to dance in pure delight.


Now I am taking them one by one, off the plate, with my eyes shut, sticky fingers finding stickier coils by the mere pull of anticipated pleasure. I lose track of time and place until I am abrubtly brought back to the world when sticky fingers encounter only a sticky, empty plate. Eyes fly open to confirm the truth, and alas, it is so. I sit back and sigh satisfiedly, with just a hint of guilt as I think of the calories surging through my body. I put those thoughts aside and continue to bask in the glow of remembered happiness.


Grateful? Of course! To the person(s) who invented and passed on this culinary wonder down the years until it reached me and provided me with a delighful experience everytime :)



Saturday, March 5, 2011

The soaring call

As I sit here, in this land dotted with mosques, every few hours, I hear the muezzin call. It begins low at first and then like an ocean swell that rises from somewhere deep, it quickly gains momentum and rises, a wall of sound fuelled by devotion, embodied with worship, and driven by longing.

And then a pause, dramatic in its abruptness, as if the wave was stopping to rally its forces. And then the call rising again, meandering through the pathways of the heart, wiping them clear of vestiges of doubt, filling them with love. Sweeping me along, climbing higher and higher, like as if it wanted to bridge the gap between earth and heaven, to dissolve the veil that seperates the two.

The final crescendo, knocking on those golden gates where the Spirit dwells, and then they open, those diaphanous doors, transporting me for some glorious moments into the presence of everything luminous, awe-inspiring, blessed.

Leaving me deeply and joyously grateful.

Saturday, February 5, 2011

BABIES

If I ask anyone if they have noticed babies, they would probably nod in agreement. However, if I ask them if they have noticed themselves while they were in the presence of babies, they might not be so sure. Babies have this almost magical effect on me. The moment I spot one, my face breaks into a smile and if I happen to be talking to the parents, I then ignore them completely and focus on the little one :) (the parents don’t seem to mind this :) ) Unknown to themselves, babies hold this little invisible string that invariably draws me closer to my inner child. In their tiny hand they hold an unseen chisel that instantly cuts away at the masks I wear until I face the little one unmasked and totally myself. Their pure innocence and unaltered genuineness reminds me of those precious qualities that seem to get lost in the adult race for survival. Theirs is a pure beingness that is almost equal to godliness. No wonder Christ said, ‘Unless you become like a small child, you shall not enter the kingdom of God’.

Little ones from the animal world have an almost similar effect. Kittens and puppies have brought tears to my eyes. Tiger cubs and baby elephants on TV make my heart glow with love. Even tiny saplings, little sprouts pushing up from the earth, all connect me to the tender, the vulnerable, the loving and compassionate in myself. Yes, thank God for babies, we can see His face in them so clearly.

Friday, February 4, 2011

DAWN CHORUS


Back in NZ, the dawn chorus was a big production by itself. Hundreds (or so it seemed) of birds woke up and sang to herald the dawn, trilling, warbling, tweeting, it was as if the dawn itself was so excited to arrive that it had found a voice and decided to announce its own coming. I would just lay in bed and listen and soak it all in, and as humans are wont to do wonder what it was that they were all saying to each other. It was the most uplifting experience.

Here in India, it is a muted affair, sparrows chattering busily in the tree outside with an occasional crow-call to add bass. However, since it is hard to hear and almost gets drowned in the morning noises of the city I have to focus in order to stay with the music. That in itself is a lesson in being present in the Now. So I am grateful for the dawn chorus (God bless their little hearts) wherever I am.


Thursday, February 3, 2011

THE BEGINNING

Today is the Chinese New Year and I thought, what a propitious time to start a blog, that too one on a subject that is so close to my heart.
At the start, I must admit that this has been inspired by the TED talk by Neil Pasricha -  http://www.ted.com/talks/neil_pasricha_the_3_a_s_of_awesome.html  and by his website http://1000awesomethings.com/
 Actually the motivation was something deeper. On a particularly depressing day when all was going badly and I was kind of thrashing impotently in frustration, a small inner voice whispered, ‘count your blessings’. That made me stop in my track of spiraling gloom and cast my mind around and pick out the positives. They were like shards of light that I caught and held on to, one at a time, that pierced the darkness and which quickly blossomed into this light-filled bubble and which effortlessly lifted me out of the darkness.
So, on this blog I shall attempt to count my blessings, which as I quickly realized is countless, so I am hoping to keep counting as long as Blogger is standing and doesn’t fall over.


GOD
Since this is the beginning and since everything began with God and in the mind of God, it is but natural that I begin with God. Actually, the whole blog can be encapsulated into just this one entry. For, isn’t God in everything? So I shall start my gratitude journal with being grateful to God.
But I’m grateful for a little something extra…
Every time I think of God, a quiet peace descends, the tensions my body holds dissolves, my heartbeat slows down, my mind almost ceases its endless scurrying and my heart fills with so much joy that it brims over and spreads to fill my entire being with rapture… I willingly and wholly surrender to God’s loving  presence, wrapped in a bliss that cannot be described, wanting it to never end …